• Random and Odd

    Later 2014

    I am SO happy to be letting 2014 go.  It wasn’t the best year, but it wasn’t 2009 either. Things need to be rearranged in my life and I need to figure out the best way to do that.   More time reading and less time Candy Crushing. Okay, it’s impossible to write anything because I just got a new bird. He’s freaking awesome. He’s a ‘Pocket Parrot’ (ie: Conure)  He’s beautiful and the biggest cuddle bug of an animal I have ever had. This guy is more cuddly than a cat or a dog!  He takes cuddles to a new level.  Unfortunately, when he’s not torpedoing in my neck…

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    So many times…

                I have sat down early in the morning to write something for my blog and I just get distracted with everything else I need to do, or get sucked into a discussion on a photography group.  There are times when I am driving into work and I think, ‘Oh, yeah! I should write about that!” and then as soon as I get to work I forget everything and fall into my day to day at the shop. Just in the time I wrote that last sentence I went and made more coffee and ended up cleaning my kitchen. It feels like I am always…

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    What will be the death of me? An indecisive blonde!

        I keep sitting down to write something and I end up finding something else that needs to be done. Like this morning I sat down with my coffee with intentions of writing something I have had on my mind and I remembered this stupid dream I had about my daughter and I needed to tell her about it. Then I ended up editing some photos. I thought, “I’ll write tonight when I get home from work.”  Then remembered that I need to wash some clothes and pack stuff up for my trip with Aaron.  Then I remembered that I have surprises that I need to work on before…

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    Oblivious…

    I am so blind. Again, my world just spun out of my control. I look at my life and how hard I have tried to just be that person that has it all together and everything looks like it is where it should be. At what point to do I just say, “That isn’t the way your life is going to go…You’re going to have a life of color and varying experiences.” I’m crazy, why I can’t I just embrace that? Why I can’t I embrace the fact that I always get what I want and it is NEVER the way I wanted it? There is a night in my…

  • Random and Odd

    I just spent the last 4 days with the girls and my person. It was unbelievable! I’ve been to Disneyland many times in the past, but this was the first time I actually felt the magic of that place. My person, Aaron is a hard core Disney fanatic. The stuff he knows blows me away.  He planned our whole trip and I swear there is a special place in heaven for him. SIX hours in a car singing every single Disney song ever recorded. Picking up Kara was so awesome! Her Facebook post: “Just hopped off the plane at LAX…” and that of course prompted us to crank up that…

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    New word…

    I was lollygagging around the shop and heard one of the guys mutter, ‘cock-sucker’.  I starting laughing and swore that I was totally going to put that word back into my daily vocabulary. He kept coming up to me during the day to ask if I had used my word yet and I said, ‘nope…I will though.’ At the end of the day all four guys had their head shoved in the hood of this old car trying to figure out what was wrong with it. I pushed my way in and looked at the engine and then around at the guys and said, “So what’s wrong with this cock…

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    spoilers darling…spoilers.

    It’s 6am. I’ve been wide awake for the last hour catching up on some letter writing, chatting with my best friend before she heads off to work and thinking about my life. I keep thinking that I should be mourning the loss of the relationship that just ended, but instead I am feeling really happy.   Maybe I was mourning that loss towards the end and that is why it is so easy for me to move forward.  I’ve already done my grieving. Some days I give myself ten minutes to still be angry.  Not at the final moments, but the conversation that followed afterward.  As I was sitting there…

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    Oh Happyyyy Dayyyy….

    I am so sore!  I shot a wedding yesterday with a 70-200 F/2.8 and my arms…are….sooooo…hurty. I was right, that is too much glass for me.  On a different note. I loved it.  It’s not my lens, it’s Dan’s, but it technically partially mine because I was the one who talked him into it.  SUCKER.  I had two camera’s going with the black rapid strap I got for Christmas and the other on the one that Lester had made for me.  His strap was so much better. I’m so happy right now with the direction of my life.  When they say that God closes a door for a reason they…

  • Random and Odd

    Yesterday was crazy. I went to the house to pick up a few things.  It’s hard being there. I look around and see the life I will no longer have.  Then I see him and I miss him. I mean, I miss the us. The good times when he would want to be fun and would allow it.  I let my mood be dictated on how his day was going or how he treated me.   I do miss the times when we would laugh. I use to do that a lot more. Work went quick because I had to leave at noon to pick up my niece from the…

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    *sigh*

    So I am waiting on a phone call that might change the way things have been moving forward in my life. I know that I have zero control of this next step I am taking, and I have to trust that if that door closes, I can’t let it derail me. I’ve been asking for doors to open and close to make sure I stay on the right path, but fuck this one…I want this one open. One day I will understand, but for now I am baffled at the way things happen. I just don’t want to wait another 22 years for an answer. *sigh*