I have been trying to think of ways to get my body in motion. First was to buy a leash that has two clips so I could walk the dogs together.
Ever try to walk two border collies together at the same time? It was a competitive battle between the two just to make sure I couldn’t move one inch in either direction. When I finally got them in motion and they realized that I was the pack leader, they then decided that my two legs weren’t nearly as strong as their eight. I was drug from one end of the street to the other in a not so delicate looking manner. Yelling, “SLOW DOWN!” just made them speed up and I was just their rag doll they were going to drag along their route to sniff out other dogs.
At one point my eight year old mind thought of hooking them up to a wagon and just letting them pull me. It was quickly dismissed because I remember at 8 years old doing the same thing to our Saint Bernard and about 15 feet down the road he caught wind of something that was more interesting and forgot he was attached to something with wheels and I was flipped over and my poor wagon was mangled.
Today I woke up and decided I needed to bounce. Everyone was gone except Kara so I drug her body out of bed and made her go to SkyZone with me. It’s a giant warehouse of trampolines. The last time I was on a trampoline I threw my back out and I coudn’t walk straight for weeks. My back has been out for weeks already and I had a stockpile of pain killers so I knew it ‘couldn’t get any worse’. (Yes, I still haven’t learned my lesson)
Kara and I were like two kids waiting to get on a roller coaster as we waited for our hour to start. We watched all these kids jumping, spinning and throwing their bodies onto the side wall trampolines. THIS WAS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN! Once we got in I realized that I had made a huge mistake. My back would only allow me to stand in one spot and just let the people bounce around me. The pain shooting down my back if I tried to jump was horrible!
After about 10 minutes of near tears, I decided to just start jumping. It took several minutes before I just pushed the pain to the back of my mind and kept going.
The sweat that was rolling off my face was proof enough that I was doing the right thing.
Kara was showing me how to fall flat on her back and bounce back up. I tried it, but my mind would shut down RIGHT before I would fall and my butt would take the impact. The cool part was, I bounced right back up.
A half hour into the bouncing they stop everyone to check their tags and let us know we had another 30 minutes. At that point, both Kara and I were exhausted and ready to go, but we stuck it out and by the end of our hour we had laughed ourselves into side cramps and our legs wouldn’t hold up any longer.
We will be going back!
After we got home, she was still on the ‘mommy time’ rush and told me that she wanted to use her free movie tickets to have me see Twilight with her (She’s seen it 6 times in the theater already) and her excitement when I said I would go was heartwarming. I didn’t like the movie nearly as much as the book…but the best part was watching a movie with my nearly 16 year old daughter and holding her hand.
So a few things on my list were completed today: I surrounded myself with laughter and was a part of it. I had my heart beating in my chest so hard I thought It would crack a rib.
This is only day 2. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring!
On my long list of things I want to be able to say I can do, I have added the one thing that in the past few years I have said is the stupidest thing in the whole, wide world. I want to be able to say I can ride a motorcycle.
When I met Dan, he had a Ninja 900 (just like the one in Top Gun) and we would spend hours and hours riding it. My little ass could fit on there quite nicely and my big, blonde hair wasn’t confined by a stupid helmet.
Since then my ass isn’t something ANYONE should have to see hanging over the seat of a motorcycle and my head would be shoved in a helmet that would make astronauts envious.
When I was 18, Dan handed me the bike and offered to let me ‘take it for a spin’. I made it about 5 feet before I dropped it. Needless to say, my ‘driving’ days were over before they began.
I woke up this morning and decided; The hardest part is stopping and starting. If I could master those two things, I could successfully say, ‘I can ride a motorcycle’ and then I can move on to the next thing on my list.
This year should be filled with lots of things. My list is long and heartbreaking.
I want to feel my heart thud inside my chest cavity so hard I think it will explode…and not because I’m having a full blown anxiety attack.
I want to feel love so passionately that I feel like my skin is on fire.
I want to wake up each morning and say, “What’s new for me?”
I want to taste new foods that make me want to cry they are so tasteful.
Things I don’t want to do;
I don’t want to eat fast food ever again. It’s been a couple weeks so far.
I don’t want to drink soda. I know it’s eating my insides out.
I would love to stop smoking. Not for me, because I love it, but for my kids. to be a good example.
I don’t want to give a shit. I have this icon that says, “Cancel my subscription. I’m sick of your issues.” Hell yes. Doesn’t that sound great? I want to cancel some subscriptions.
I never want to take another antibiotic for the rest of my life. I know that isn’t reasonable, but my body is tired and worn out from 6 solid months of it.
My new friends;
Vitamins. Holy crap, I haven’t taken a vitamin in ELEVEN years! yeah, prenatal vitamins were the last time I popped one. They make me physically ill, but I realize now…I NEED them.
Yogurt. I would swim in a barrel of it, if someone would provide it!
Laughter. I want that sound to surround me like music.
MUSIC. Thank you again for the Ipod. I have music going ALL the time now and I am reminded of the good times in my life when music was a friend. It hurts sometimes, but it’s a good hurt.
Photography. Of course has always been my bestest friend, but like a friend who is forced to move in with you and take over your bedroom…I have resented it for awhile. I promise to take more pictures…and share my lip gloss.
Videos. I bought a cheap video camera for the kids. I will jump into that world as well…and capture the remaining years of my children and their innocence.
My hair. I know, some of you hate it, but I really like it right now. It makes me get up in the morning and try to do something with it. Just humor me for awhile okay?
Writing. I’m still working on my book, but it took a back seat to E Coli. I have also started something a little different from Random and Odd. It’s a year of photography along with my horoscope and how I feel about it.
Promises. I promise this year, I will fall in love with life again.
Today was spent much like 2008, laying around and enjoying my husband’s company and the comfort of my bed.
Tomorrow…will be much different.